O = Obsession #SpanksA2Z 10


O = Obsession

ob·ses·sion
əbˈseSHən/
noun
noun: obsession
the state of being obsessed with someone or something.
“she cared for him with a devotion bordering on obsession”
an idea or thought that continually preoccupies or intrudes on a person’s mind.
plural noun: obsessions
“he was in the grip of an obsession he was powerless to resist”
synonyms: fixation, ruling/consuming passion, passion, mania, idée fixe, compulsion, preoccupation, infatuation, addiction, fetish, craze, hobbyhorse;

informala bee in one’s bonnet, hang-up, thing
“that new car has become his obsession”

It is a good thing I never got into drugs, I have such an addictive personality, I would probably still be in rehab.  Over the course of my life I have had many addictions/obsessions.

In my teen years I became addicted to solitaire, which then became an obsession later in life also on the computer.   I love being able to shut my mind off while playing solitaire.  You don’t think, it becomes all about the cards, the patterns.  I love following patterns and puzzles.

I then became addicted to smoking–thankfully that was a habit I only kept for a few years.

When my kids were younger, I didn’t have external obsessions, I believe THEY became my obsession.  What they ate, how I cooked it, vitamins, health foods, detergent, no scents, scents, lotions, sun screens, allergies, sickness, growth, educational EVERYTHING, etc.  Anything to do with the kids became an obsession.

In the past 10 years, as they got older, my obsessions came back.   As stated earlier, my first one was solitaire.  I would play for hours and into the middle of the night on the computer.

Next came my obsession with Bejeweled–I adore Bejeweled.  Again, patterns.  I love finding patterns.  I have been told I should have worked for the FBI.

Just seeing that electric “ZAP” on the screen makes me want to pull the game out on my Kindle and stay up all night.  I won’t, but it is calling to me.  I can hear the sounds as I am typing.

Next was my obsession with Soduko

I swear there was a time in my life, that I would have actually tried to do this if someone buried me in sand.  I had not one but three subscriptions to Soduko.  I never liked playing on the internet or on my phone.  I had to have a pen or pencil.  I had a book on every end table, every bathroom, at work, in my car and in every purse I owned.  I was never without a book.  Again, the rhythm of 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 mesmerized me.  I would sit and count.  4, 5, 7, oh there’s 8.  Yes!  9!!  OMG I am done, that did it!!  9 was the one!!  All the problems in my life or the world melted away as I tried to fill little boxes with numbers 1-9.

I tried to get into Angry Birds, but I didn’t like it.  It was frustrating and did actually make me angry.  My goal is to mindlessly find patterns and not think, so this did not help.  I found myself hating those damn birds and if I have to go to YouTube to find a video to pass a level.  I am done.  It isn’t fun anymore. 

My next addiction was, as it was/is for most people, Candy Crush. 

 Just looking at that screen makes me want to open it on my phone.  I won’t.  I can’t.  I was stuck on that damn thing for months.  And I swore I wouldn’t spend money, but when I was stuck on a level for over a week.  Yes, I spent my $5 to beat that son-of-a-bitchin’ level!  I finally walked away about a year ago and I haven’t gone back.  But that damn little chocolate ball with the sprinkles is winking at me–do you see it?  I see it, he is winking at me and….well….I may play one game.  Just one.

But, through it all the one obsession that has been with me all my life and continues, is my obsession with spanking.  No matter what side obsession, spanking has been my one true obsession and love.

What is your obsession??

Enjoy the rest of the blogs today!!  I am on Renee Rose’s blog and Adaline Raine’s blog, please visit both of them!! 


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10 thoughts on “O = Obsession #SpanksA2Z

  • Natasha Knight

    You with an obsessive personality??? I would never have guessed it…

    I am the same. When I fall in love with something, I'm 100% in and that is all – there is no half assed anything. But I fall out of love too and then it just falls away… I've only had a few things not fall away entirely. Yoga is one and I hope writing another but we shall wait and see.

    🙂

  • Ruth Staunton

    I'm the same. As the adult child of an alcoholic, I've tried to stay away from chemical addictions, but other things…books, Bejeweled, Candy Crush, and of course, the mother-of-all obsessions, spanking. Yep, that's me.

  • Tara Finnegan

    Can I just say, I considered it best to delete bloody Candy Crush off my phone!!!
    Sudoku too, brilliant when it works but grrrr when you realise one number just doesn't fit and it's second from last 🙁
    Crosswords though, now that's a pleasant pass-time, especially cryptic. Keeps the brain ticking.

  • PK Corey

    We sound so very much alike. I too am glad I never tried drugs. Reading always held me, then I was into art for a while and that took tons of time. I'm still into Candy Crush – as you said the mindlessness of it. And yes spanking has always been there, even when I went through long periods where the interest wasn't really strong, it was always there.

    • Megan Michaels

      Yes, you and I are also alike!! A Lot!! I forgot about reading as my obsession. I have read 1-2 books a week since I was ten or eleven!! But spanking is my love–my heart's desire!! I can and do read them daily!!! I think I may play candy crush tonight. Another good game I forgot was Holiday Drops!! Soooooooo much fun–scope it out.